Stuck

Stuck

By Adrielle R. Bollin

Twisted in desire

Wanting everything

Knowing in the end

I'm on the wrong wing

What is it you want

You made me who I am

With eyes like butterflies

Flitting round the dam

So much here to see

So much left to do

Cannot understand

How I get to you

What are all these years

Training or a waste

Training for the waiting

Or training for the haste

Someone won't you pinch me

Move me from this spot

Kick me down the road

Pull me from this parking lot

I want to see the world

But I'm stuck here in the mud

Indecision binding

Comforts sucking blood

Who have I become

A woman or a girl

Princess or a prisoner

Agate or a pearl

Need to hear your guidance

Want to see your face

But somehow I'm unwilling

To run the same old race

Show me with your bright light

Where is it I turn

Heal my failing vision

Help me to discern

God I'm falling down

Won't you pick me up

Hold me in your arms

Fill me with your love

Restore my aching heart

To the fullness I enjoyed

Make me to remember

Take away the void

Teach me from your own mouth

Cure me of my doubt

Show me what I'm missing

And what to do without