Oh my dear

Forgive me for not writing recently. Life has been very busy and I think I am fighting off the flu or something. So, to hold you over, here is a song I wrote about my husband not too long ago.

Oh My Dear
By Adrielle Bollin

With your few imperfections
I can't help my affections
I am smitten by you
Oh yes you're so dang cute

And when you turn to me
I tell you all that I see
Are those two oceans of blue
Enchanting all that you do

Chorus:
Oh my dear
How we've loved through these years
We have gone through times
Times of trials and tears
But still hear we are
We have come so far
You're still loving me
I'm still loving you

Sometimes it's like we just met
They way you flirt and caress
me You know just what to do
To get me churning for you

You love me just how I like
And when the day turns to night
I'm wanting only to be with you
Oh darling how I love you

Bridge:
You know we've been through
The good times and bad
But in the end you know
I love you happy or sad
The vows we made are more
Than castles of sand
Oh they're top grade
I know that our love will stand

Early Autumn

Autumn colors burnt too soon
Giving hues of dark maroon
Yellows charred and orange toasted
"Winter's coming" is clearly posted

Winds are blowing leaves to flight
The air so cold brings breath to sight
All this year where has it gone
Running faster with every dawn

Here I sit in crisp morn air
Seeing stars shine bright as e'er
Steam is rising from a lake of glass
Waters cooling to night time blast

All is calm no noise is heard
The earth asleep and undisturbed
Birds soon sing their morning tune
Softly waking the sun and moon

The moon will go to distant land
As rays of sun caress the sand
Day has come and nighttime gone
Time to wake and meet the dawn

Creativity

We've all known people who were and are hurting and struggling but are unwilling to talk about it, preferring to keep the source of the pain private. We wonder what to do and how we can help. We pray for them as best we know how and hope that our prayers are useful and beneficial. Still though, we want to talk with them and see how they are doing, what they are thinking and how we can help them more specifically.

I am experiencing this at present. I want so bad to hug this person and let them know that I am here and that I am behind them no matter what. It's hard when people refuse your direct help. Yet these are the times we must be more dependent on God. These situations force us to rely on Him to a) listen to our prayers, b) answer them, and c) to know what they actually need and perhaps impart that information to us through revelation or random thought. This is hard because we all want to see results and progress. We want to send up our requests and get a "yes I will" or a "no I won't/can't". Unfortunately it doesn't work that way. Yet if we are patient, we do hear of progress, though not always. If we are patient, we will finally hear how God worked in their life at that trying time. Still though, not always.

We've been falsely taught for a long time that if we do this, then this will happen. This simply is not the case! I wish it were, but as I mentioned earlier, God likes (or perhaps needs) to change the way He does things on a regular and often basis. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow, but He is eternally creative too.

Creativity is defined as "the ability to transcend traditional ideas, rules, patterns, relationships, or the like, and to create meaningful new ideas, forms, methods, interpretations, etc.". So though his character is the same, his character is creative, thus allowing the constant change in how He works. Yet still sometimes He will seem to repeat Himself too.

He breaks down these false teachings and rules by amazing us by doing things in ways we never would have imagined. Hence His word that says "My ways are high above your ways, my thoughts above your thoughts." And they should be, He is God after all is He not? I would hope that the God I serve was not only smarter and more creative, but also knows the entire picture that we cannot see.

Still, we humans are incredibly impatient and want more than anything sometimes (or always, depending on your personality type and life story) to be in control. We want to know our destiny.

Sometimes God will even let us glimpse that destiny, and I think God would even like for us to see what is planned for us. I have even glimpsed my own, but like many, I am not entirely sure I believe it most of the time. I think this is probably why most of us do not glimpse our future, because God knows we probably won't believe it.

I can't remember where this story is in the bible, but a prophet was arguing with God saying "Tell me what will happen" and God was saying "You wouldn't believe me if I told you" and the prophet says "Yes I will, please tell me!" and when God relents and tells him, he says "I don't believe it!". All that is paraphrased of course. I can't even fathom how often that must happen, lol. x-D

I imagine God gets a real kick out of us sometimes...and yet how saddening that would be as well. I know how frustrating it can be to simply tell someone how beautiful they are and they cannot believe me. Yet I see it as plain as day! Imagine now how frustrating it would be for the One who knows and sees all to tell someone they are a king, yet they continue to live as a slave.

So before this gets even longer, let me leave you with this thought that even I must soak in... What if God doesn't lie?

In the dark cloud

In the dark Cloud
By Adrielle R. Bollin

I still refuse
To believe the worst
I still hold on
To your hope and word

Cause I don't want
To be like the rest
Giving up hope
And failing the test

I don't like
To think this is from you
But I can't help
But feel you're in this too

Cause you have said
That you would never leave
And in your truth
There I'll be set free

So I will stay
Here waiting again
Wrestle not
With the how and the when

Trust in you
Though I don't understand
Wait this out
As you hold my hand

Cause you're here
Ever with me
I will make it
And make it safely

You love me
This one thing I know
In your hands
I let my sorrows go

Dancing with you
My focus will be
So life can be vibrant
For everyone to see

Let Me

Let Me

With the best of intentions
We all say I'll follow you
Then we go on our way
Trying to be and to do

Although I am just as guilty
I am seeing a new light
Shining brightly within
Calling me to new heights

You say let me be the center
Let me be near you more
Let me love in and through you
Let me dwell in your core
If you let me stay there
You'll see wonders untold
You will love with my love
Touching everyone, young and old

I have seen the way of the hurried
Running in the wilderness alone
Aching for worth and value
Longing just to be known

Grace has taught me to dance
Though the storm is raging on
Mercy is beauty in knowing
The need for control is gone

By: Adrielle R. Bollin